just because

just because you might dream it

doesn't mean you should have it

just because you might have it

doesn't mean you should keep it

just because you might keep it

doesn't mean you own it

just because you think you own it

doesn't mean you should use it

just because you might use it

doesn't mean you know how

just because you assume you know how

doesn't mean you do

just because you think you do

doesn't mean you understand why

just because you think you understand why

doesn't make it right

aze

an absolutely awesome amazing amounted afternoon assembled across affirmations after affirmations announced as agreements and "alright"!  

anxieties adhered anent axioms.  

apprehension ascended and ascending all  away awaiting another accompaniment and attitude affluent as approval and acceptance and accordance.  

an acquiescence amenable and anon amicable and anon amiable and anon admirable.  

aces!

Five K's

Dark sky.

Crack of thunder.

Strike of Ning's Light: her bolts of flash

whimpers childress.

Look left.  smagrin.  Look right.  smagrin.

Shiver.  smagrin.  nod "yes".  smagrin.  smagrin.

1.  Kape I wear invisible to bear covers my spine.  

I will fly or run and shine shine shine.

Starting line: Start.

(tick tock tick tock . . .)

2.  Kases I'm dealt.  Maybe more as I melt whatever guilt, whatever's felt

in leg

or neck

or shoulder.

(tick tock tick tock . . .)

The rain drops pouring on my steams of limping shame.

2 feet.

2 legs.

2 slow for even 2 year old's with 2 parents, which is only too apparent that I am not they

who run further away from me, forwardly, in front of me.

I still will stop.

I will trudge as I attempt to walk my kidneys back to being 2 kidneys worth being 2 kidneys.

Chest high!  Deep breaths!

breathe in.  breathe out.

breathe in.  breathe out.

breathe in.  breathe out.

back on pace.  Run!

3.  Kages to flee from.  The 3rd beholds three.

One HEART: pumping and pumping and pumping.

I dare not close my eyes while I count the drum beats of my pulse, but if I do close my eyes the beats vibrate my skull.  Acoustic.  The vibrations cool, my head nodding to the booms of my breaths.

Cool!

Number 2 of the three, my MIND, silently questioning,

"Am I seriously running this K?  In showers in May on this Memorial Day?  

Am I still running"?

I am.

(tick tock tick tock . . .)

These clouds above, aren't of doubt, my past despair I, many times, did love.

Those times dissipate.  This weather!  I did not anticipate.

My SOUL my SPIRIT floats me belongingly along.

I smagrin.
Cage 1, in my cave, of memories reminding me I'm shackeled to hope,
dressed up in dreams, for mockery: belittling gleams.  

Ha!  

I will finish this, un-drenched from a flood of disapproved disability.  But,

4.  Kane.  Able I am.  For Cane, I still sweetly smagrin because.

I came.

I saw.

I kicked some Astro-nomical diagnosi of what I can not.

Can.

will not.

Will.

I can.  I ran.  Next to a man.  Named Dan.

(tick tock tick tock . . .)

Now up another hill?!  I've strengthened my legs, a bit.
Still, walk and smagrin.
Take it slow.  Encourage other walkers.
Smile as I pass them.  Oh, and smile the many passing me.
So many passes.  Rain drops on my glasses.

The last leg?  Ha ha, barely hobbling and almost high stepping it as I begin my jog again,
sloshing the turns.  Slipping almost sliding.  

Still, floods of rain!

Finish line in view.

(tick tock tick tock . . .)

Hands shaking, again, of what seems again so new.

Smagrin now to teeth!

Pick up the pace almost to a sprint.  Ya, to the last hundred meters,

but when You reign forever,

my strength will rise!

I ran another!

5.  K

Accomplishment, I surmise.  And I can still keep open my eyes!

the trees

the Spirit breathes musically gilded tunes and tones that shine with heightened eye lids.

the trees don't sing.  would they like to?

if they did, there'd be resonances of bass and oak, hollow booms of old breaths, heavy gasps.

still, the wind directs their attention asking to not twist or turn or become uprooted due to the negligence of attention.

the booms bring beats.  the feet's reverberate the land and old anger will never do old bark any favor.

the elders in the woods say,

"your flattery does not flatter me or any tree in our society.

our fruit won't ripen earlier or later than expected.

our flowers won't blossom due to your tender cares or

patronage.  nature commands us.  not, who, you man"?

phases lost

PHASES LOST

began 3/26/13 completed 3/27/13

by jered* feldman

The light shines, everly

and i'm not sure if i'm standing

that bed of shame, my young hospice

is now a cloak, to a feeble frame

of life, of mind

loss, loss

I caught you, standing there

you fell into my trapdoor heart

I still was weak, my shaky knees

the confidence of my self esteem

in life, in mind

lost, lost

our age, merry, deeds to dust

seven pre, seven post

the dreams I had, sucked me in

those fantasies, just memories

of life, in mind

lost, lost

time invested, evaporated

struggles to be regenerated

was the trial in vain? In vain?

I've no idea what's my identity

in life, in mind

lost, lost

my choices then, never again

misdirection, most sublime

now all mistakes, trail behind

even their shadows will dissipate

i'm still alive! This new concept

not unresponsive, no more inept

never at fault, just blurred the vision

but on the path, in the mission

for life, for mind

gains, gains

so much to gain

“immerse myself, in the new creation, I am, re instated”

namaste

Trin Tri Trec Trois
Have I told you what I saw
Effervescent auras shine
Incandescent, so sublime
Namaste
Namaste
Energy is a glow
Restoration's in the flame
Life above and Life below
Intercessory's the call
Golden.  and the polish
His Aven Home's a refuge
Tantara the blessed ones
Zenitheos.  Zionites.
Salutations every
All encompassing
Lift and Raise emboldened praise
Undermine bane, the craze
Take you through the inner lights
Enigmatic prosthelyte

pleas

people please
people please
i won't please the people
for people's needs
for people's knees
kneed up to needs
brought from the peoples
who ease the needs
of peoples pains
or peoples pain
the people's pain
the mocked insane
they're payin' the sum
the sane refrain
to recognize
with unpaid eyes
in stern relation
their stern eyes
are sterilized 
in owned and unowned
lies
lies that play
to home made dramas.
lies that pay homage
to bastard sons
and 
their negligent mamas.